December 26, 2005

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  Aries

  Daily extended (by Astrology.com) Getting back to the grind could be rather challenging right now, especially since you’re lacking your usual high energy. You may even be a bit emotional with coworkers, which they might find startling. If you’re lucky enough to have a workspace with a door, close it, and if you’ve got meetings scheduled, cancel them if possible. You’ll do best now working on tasks alone and with some peace and quiet. Even more peace and quiet is what you’ll want tonight.

  
  

  
  
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  Dear Emily–

  
  

  I don’t know what to say about yesterday.  I generally don’t get sick like that but when I do it seems to be at strategically bad times?   Yeah I was talking of food  poisoning and missing Taste of Tippecanoe when we were driving to church.

  
  

  Myabe it was a combination of things?  At the beginning of the service I broke out in sweats and began shaking and I’m like no!  Not now!  It’s Christmas–don’t do this to me!  (very small ha ha)  I was afraid you were going to see me over there glistening.  I was soaked.  After about 20 minutes–I dunno–that stopped and it was like can I make it to the end of the service before running to the restroom?  That’s why I was fidgeting so much and I was afraid I was bothering you.   The sermon actually was quite good–I did try to pay attention to it while there.   And I was like–shit–I’m going to have to go home and miss lunch and gift opening and all that.  I’d been mindful that this will probably be the last holiday for a while I’ll be there physically to share with you all, and I’d planned to do my part to make it memorable.

  
  

  (Haha)

  
  

  Yeah but not in the way I did.

  
  

  I think it was alot of smallish things and the warmth and stuffiness of the sanctuary (to me anyway) pushed me over physically.   I’d thought I’d had enough sleep and was well rested enough, but this time of year always a drain.  Ok and the night before yes I had two beers which I thoroughly enjoyed–but I don’t think those in of themselves would have done anything.  I did have a headache before I was about to leave to come out, but made one of my bad decisions to tough it out.  Excedrin migraine does wonders but technically I’m allergic to aspirin.  I took some earlier in the week when I sliced my finger and the next day my left eye was vampire red–so……..  (small haha)  And the other stuff rarely does much–so I thought I’d just deal with it.  Oh well.

  
  

  I sort of glossed over the house stuff with you–but the cousins said on the 23rd it’s about ready–and the whole reality of uprooting and transplanting myself physcially and emotionally was hitting me pretty hard.  I think I’ve been feeling weak and vunerable over that as much as anything.  I mean I know I’ll have lots of help here and there over it—but I like living here–and the stepping out into the unknown thing again–oh well–mixed emotions.   

  
  

  I appreciate all the thoughtful things you all gave to me.  I didn’t really give you all much. I was trying for light entertainment as much as anything. I’d been looking forward to watching the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory DVD with everyone.  The scarf has my colors perfectly.  The socks I’ll be wearing today. The gloves are just right and I’ve needed a new ice scraper too.  The earrings are perfect too.  Just what I wanted.  You know that hot bod stuff I’d been wearing lightly as a fragrance.  I read the little cartoon on there–I didn’t know that was supposed to be in lieu of actual bathing?  Eww  Hahah  Smells good but I still plan to wash myself.  hahah  Is the nutbread supposed to be soaked in the brandy?

  
  

  I should explain the book I gave you.   Ray Bradbury’s Something Wicked This Way Comes is probably me as much as anything.  And the lead character is named Wil(l)  Haha   If I had to save one book in the world it would be that one.

  
  

  In my tossing and turning in bed yesterday I did have one thought. I was thinking the “I missed Christmas” thought, and then the usual “it’s more than just one day” / Whos in Whoville –thoughts after that…more than food (say it ain’t so–haha) and gifts and the like.  And there are plenty of people who miss out due to deaths, illnesses, poverty and the like.  So–this may sound hokey–I’m going to try each morning when I get up to actually look myself in the mirror (ouch) and look at myself and say to the reflection “Today is Christmas” and look at myself a bit while doing it.   I usually don’t look at myself when I first get up and if I do it’s “Oh fuck you again?”  Maybe I should quit doing that.  Haha

  
  

  And now—to get ready for work and happy shoppers!   Haha   Well I’ll be off Wednesday and Thursday–then early next week too.

  
  

  Take care and give my regards and thanks to everyone,
  Love,
  Wil
  

  
  

  
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  Yeah, that Wil knows how to party.  Haha  Bleh.  hahah

  
  

  Guess I got a head start on the post holiday diet?  hahah

  
  

  Bleh.

  
  

  Time for work getting ready.

  
  

  Boo.  

  
  

  (haha I guess)

  
  

  
  Wilz

  
  

   

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